STILLBORN
A story of love, loss, and finding life again.
A book by Desirée van Nieuwenhoven
Raw. Real. Full of love.
This book does not ask you to move on. It asks you to carry your child with you, every day, in every way.
FOR WHOM
For the mother who knows what empty arms feel like.
Whether your loss just happened. Or whether you have been carrying it for years. This book sees you. All of you.
ABOUT THIS BOOK
Raw. Real. Full of love.
Stillborn is Desirée's personal story. Of losing Jasmijn, Tom, and Tim. Of falling apart. And of slowly, carefully, finding her way back.
Not by moving on. By carrying them with her.
She wrote this book because in the middle of her loss, she longed for words that truly reflected what she was going through. Not just the sadness. But also the love. The guilt. The laughter that surprised her. The life that was still there.
This book will not take away your grief. But it might shift the way you carry it. It might help you feel your child's love as a source of strength. It might remind you that life, too, is still here for you.
Because love does not end. It just changes shape.
WHAT YOU READ
This is not a book about how to grieve. It is a book about how to live.
Not a manual. Not a method. Not a roadmap.
A story about what it means to lose a child and still find a way to live. About the guilt that sneaks in when you laugh. About the love that never leaves. About the moment you realise your child can be your strength instead of only your pain.
This book does not fix anything. But it might change how you carry it.
Read it. Hear it. Wherever you are.
Choose the format that fits this moment.
PAPERBACK
Hold it in your hands.
The paperback is available worldwide via Amazon. Order it wherever you are.
$17.99 via Amazon.
E-BOOK
Start reading tonight.
Available via Amazon Kindle. On your phone, tablet, or e-reader. Always within reach, even at 2am when the silence gets loud.
$7.99 via Amazon Kindle.
AUDIOBOOK
Her voice. Her words.
The audiobook of Stillborn is narrated by Desirée herself. Not a voice actor. The woman who lived it.
For the car. For the quiet walk. For the moments when reading is too much.
Available via Storytel and other listening platforms.
$12.99 or included in your Storytel subscription.
ABOUT DESIRÉE
Desirée wrote Stillborn because she couldn't find it anywhere.
After losing Jasmijn, Tom, and Tim, she searched for words that held both the grief and the love. For a book that saw her child as real. As hers. As someone who mattered.
She didn't find it. So she wrote it.
Not as a therapist. Not from a textbook. From the place where you are standing right now.
Stillborn has reached mothers across the Netherlands, Belgium, and beyond. Now it travels further.
WHAT MOTHERS SAY
In their own words
"The focus shifted to what my daughter brought me, instead of what I had lost. After every session, I felt lighter. She felt closer."
"Desirée knows from her own experience. She doesn't need explanations. That genuine understanding you can feel it. It is completely different."
"I saw a story I deeply recognised. Someone who stands strong in life after everything she has been through. I thought: that is where I want to go."
This book is not only Desirée's story.
It might also become a mirror for yours.
Some women come to this book in the middle of their pain. Others find it years later, when the world has moved on but they haven't.
Both are right. Both are welcome.
If you feel there is more, you are.
Desirée van Nieuwenhoven
Your child is always with you. The question is only: how do you carry them?
That is what we discover together. At your pace. With warmth. Without making things heavier than they already are.
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